New Beginnings

I want to start by saying that I don’t do everything right. I’m not here to tell you should follow my advice every day, even I don’t do that. I’m not here to promise that this blog will always be one thing. It’s already changed three times as I’ve grown and evolved. and I hope you will follow along as I continue to find who I want to be and what this blog will be.

To give some background, when I was 18 years-old, I started my first video blog. Six months later, as I grew and lost sight of why I started, my ‘vlog’ tapered off. I couldn’t rationalize what my vlog was about with who I was becoming. At 20, I felt as though I knew what I wanted to be, so I built a new blog/vlog, called it The Mouse N Me, and locked myself into a path of Disney factoids and news. About eight months later, too proud and stubborn to admit that I might ever change, I found myself in a similar situation: unmotivated to make content that I was no longer passionate about and too stubborn to accept that my dreams and goals may have changed.

I have always felt lost in a world of possibilities. The past few years especially, my brain has ben flying through a tornado of thoughts. To anchor myself, my strategy was to latch onto one and try to hang on as the speed of my anxiety and the world whipped me around. I would always let go. And therein lies my greatest flaw: I plan by choosing an end goal I believe I want and ignore whether or not I truly want to do it. I focused too much on what  I wanted to not who I wanted to be.

Now here I am, 22-years-old and re-launching my blog again. This time instead of trying to grasp onto thoughts or obscure goals, I’m going to make an intentional effort to step away, see life for what it is, and keep moving forward. 

Whatever I create, it will come from my heart. You might notice that my blog title appears as “Annie Proctor: (title of blog post).” I want anyone who reads my blog to know that the following post came from me in my search for my own life and the magic in it.

Welcome to Annie Proctor: Finding The Magic. If you’re curious as to what kind of magic I’ll be finding, stay tuned for next week’s posts. 

Thanks for reading and I’ll see you real soon,

Annie